阿娜答有點布魯

細川貂貂政大日文系畢業，她在華語世界裡沒有「一個人」系列的高木直子那麼受熱捧，但她其中一個作品的確很好，影響力可以很大。台灣有出過那本漫畫的中文版，叫《阿娜答得了憂鬱症》，那是「第一本以圖文方式介紹憂鬱症的書」；不懂日語，其他人說，阿娜答是老婆稱呼老公的「你」的意思，也有家中支柱的含意。幾年後，漫畫改編成三集的迷你劇，由藤原紀香主演，好像沒受太大的注視；再過兩年至去年，佐佐部清將之拍成電影，由宮崎葵與「喜怒哀樂都能用笑去表達」的堺雅人主演，國內通常譯作《丈夫得了抑鬱症》，台譯《阿娜答有點blue》，是去年金馬影展的閉幕電影。

「憂鬱症就像是心靈的感冒，誰都可得。」戲裡的醫生對男主角說。有人説，世界衛生組織預計，那將可能成為三大疾病裡的第二殺手（我看的那個資料所指的其餘二大是癌症與愛滋病）。不過，它確是靜默的殺手。這電影我下載後看了一點便放下，然後幾個月後的那天知道有一位不相熟的師姐的離逝，把它看完，然後感覺那位師姐及她的家人朋友如果看了這個電影，她會不會仍在某處活著。老朋友也分享了另一個觀後感，道出我所想：

I became interested in this movie because my friend committed suicide reportedly of depression. There was no note left or symptoms detected beforehand. We were all shocked and sad. I thought watching this would be therapeutic as well as educational of the disease so we can beware of it when help is needed.

The film turned out to be very informative, supportive and heartwarming. It made me want to get married – to someone like the wife Haruko Takazaki (Aoi Miyazaki宮崎葵) in the movie. It would be so nice to have a supportive company! She is instrumental in the curing process as she accepted her husband Mikio (Masato Sakai堺雅人) and tried her ways to cope with the illness (such as getting work) without exerting pressure on him. The most important thing was that she offered a different and reasonable perspective based on what his was and built a more positive one.

When he said he could not even cook (he usually made his own lunchbox), she said you are already a better cook than I was. When he did not know what to do for the day, she told him to take a nap. When he said he cannot do many things, she said it is OK not to be perfect. Haruko might appear to be a lazy person: she was not a good cook and almost always slept in. But on salient matters such as curing her husband, she was determined to have him choose between a stressful job versus divorce, or accepting her husband as who he was, or relieving his financial stress by her own way. She just did not give in and yet she did not put pressure on herself.

Her way of dealing with stress was going with the flow. Her believing in herself originally came from her husband so she tried very hard to help him get back on his feet. Apart from Haruko, their family was also very supportive in helping them.

What I have learnt from this movie on depression is that it already helps to tell others/talk about our problems. There might not be an immediate solution, but at least the stress would be out of our body. It would also serve as a learning opportunity for others. There seems to be a meaning for everything. Depression may be tough to deal with, but if we can find its meaning and make good use of it, maybe it is not at all such a misfortune.

The art-direction is superb. Their house itself is perfect in this setting with the cramped yet tidy interior, echoing the suffocating psychological state of the depressed patient. When Mikio's condition improved, they had a nice chat in the courtyard, symbolizing they had stepped out of that suffocation and added in more freshness for a boundless future.

We need to be aware that depression illness can be cured. It just needs more patience and positive attitude from the patient and people around. This is a romantic, heartwarming, bitter-sweet and educational type of entertainment. You will gain one way or the other watching it.